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Dear Past Self


I am the recent version of you, updated 05:55 PM 4th September 2014.

I know that you will never get the chance to read this but I have always wanted to write you back. I re-read your letter every time I’m feeling down. It may seem pointless to write to someone in the past but this is the same old me, doing crazy stuff. You know me more than anybody else so you’ll surely understand why I’m doing this. I’ve been here for 20 years now.  I’m thankful for all the choices you made in the past. If you were not you, I will never be me.

Tell you what, these days, I just felt like I’m half alive. I’m a late bloomer. I just realized that I truly need to dream, to aim, or else my existence will be pointless.

I suddenly miss all of those things you used to do like studying, performing, painting, and writing – all the self-expression I was fearless of doing before. I felt as if I suddenly became lifeless, that all of your hopes went to waste. What have I done? You have trusted me so much.

What will I do with my youth? It’s not that I would live forever. I need to make something, not for everyone to remember me, but to at least have this sense of satisfaction that my existence will not come to waste. I don’t want to live this life as happy-go-luckily as I am doing at the moment.

Today, I will do my best to finally move. I will start on my little steps to accomplish something great in the future. I will pursue all of those items marked as “later” on my to-do list.
1. I will read that book, or watch that intriguing movie.
2. I will go to the amusement park alone again.
3. I will value my time more.
4. I will love myself more.
5. I will say the things I’ve always wished I’ve said.
6. I will be fearless to craft the things I’ve always wished I made.
7. I will learn to let go and move on.

I’m not saying that I can accomplish all of those in one go. I just want to be happy, you know, the sort that lingers. I wanted to get a sense of fulfillment, of giving my best on anything, of loving whatever I’m doing, of being myself, of expanding my horizon.

I know I have the endless possibilities my youth offers. I should not waste it. I have to live carefree. I have to loosen up. I have to stop being in the shadows.

You were great. Now, it’s my turn to be greater than what you imagined me to be.

version 20.7.1
updated 06:20 PM 4th September 2014

Attached is a picture of you. This was 2010. T’was one of my first trips to the university. You were both open and uptight.


I will not print the picture out for you to lessen my carbon footprints. Better view it on the web, thank you.



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back log

Okay, so I’m not that writing here that much. Hmm, I’m soo sorry. Some are approaching me about it and I’m like, “whoa, thank you for wanting to read more of what I’ve got to say but I’m busy with my life now, yes, with real life and I have no extra time for writing.” Sorry. Yes, I’m getting quite arrogant and unappreciative.

Sorry, sincerely. I’ve been wasting my time again. This week, a lot of thoughts are playing on my quirky mind but okayy, I don’t have the confidence again. It’s like, I’m totally blogging something out but something, somehow tells me that I’d rather leave my blog alone than write crap on it, make it not so consistent on its contents.

Hmm, anyways, I’m working on a story written in Taglish (Tagalog-English) and Imma publish it soon on my new wattpad.com account. Well, it’s just something I’ll use to de-stress on every thing that dumps me down. My life is kind of a mess right now, actually so, I’m thinking of ways to y’kno, unwind and take a break even just for a while on everyday mess that life brings.

Anyways, Thank YOU very much for all the support, I’m going to be on hiatus mode for now and, I’ll keep you posted soon. Sorry for the back log. Really, I appreciate you reader but there certain times on someone’s life when they just don’t have the energy to do stuff, even the things they totally want.

Will link my story once it’s published, promise! 🙂 I just have to hear what my closest circle of friends have to say about it.

So, I kept on repeating it but hey, repetition is catchy! Thank you very much! Will keep you posted soon!

Summer’s almost here in the tropics! Am really excited! ❤


time to start organizing

C’mon! A lot of people are just like me. >:D

I’m the type of person who cleans my typically cluttered study/work desk just whenever I have the “time” to do it.You can identify that “time” as to when 1.) I can’t find the things I need anymore, or 2.) someone else is gonna come in my room (just imagine the stress it’ll give to the one who’ll see the mess). OTL

Why do we act like that? One thing is that there are soo many things to do besides the boring task of cleaning up one’s tab.” Hey, I’ll see my things anyway. They are just there, er, somewhere there. At least I have a hint where it’s relatively at.”

Know what? Finally, I got tired of always seeing it in such a system that only I, would recognize. Hmm, I understand its elaborate pattern *sigh* almost always. Now, I’m ready to change the habit of arraying things up with no particular logical sequence at all and YES, it feels rockin’ great. \m/

I just realized how your tab can represent how you walk your life. That simple task can mean more that you think it can stand for. If your desk is cluttered like mine, can you observe how it slows you down whenever you are in a hurry and you can’t find the things you know were “there”. One more thing is that aside from cluttered desks, you also have an unorganized bed, school notebook, computer desktop, and bag. Even those things that matter like your schedule, plans, and life are somewhat in a state that needs some order.

Who doesn’t want a waaaay easier life?

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feeling warmth in the cold

The coldest months of the year kicked in but still, warmth surrounds me.

At times, it feels like I’ve all been drained down and all I want is to quit all of this. I sometimes feel like the loser of the whole existense of men here on Earth. Crying is women’s most intense sort of expression but tears are often misunderstood so crying alone can be my greatest resort from all those stress.


Even though I feel alone at times, I’ve got this group of people who believes that life shouldn’t be taken too seriously and that my biggest problem is other’s less serious dilemma. With TRUE friends, honesty, hugs and lots of true love are shared and so, a different kind of warmth radiates within you in the coldest times.

That is the warmth of the heart. ❤

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Dear people of Earth

I’ve got really sad about not being active on my primary blog and considered quitting it. What a shame. I really love blogging but then, I’ve always run out of time to do it regularly until I completely neglected it.

Then today came and I thought about revisiting my blog and it’s kinda uncomfortable to see something you’ve started and never managed to maintain.

so, yea. here’s for starting anew. hope that this time, I do it right.

Princess Yoko